I have left ages ago, and it seems people still think I am active on LRB.
But the reason why I left DA was because I got tired of all the fucking drama people kept trying to drag me into, even if I was never a part of it to begin with.
Yes, I liked drama, but when it got to the point where I got people saying horrible things behind my back and loosing respect for what I said just because I was friends with one guy who was unpopular in the anti wolfaboo community. It's like everyone expected me to go against someone who had otherwise been reasonable to me. It's like I *gasp*, wanted to avoid bandwagons and drama that had nothing to do with me whatsoever. God forbid I think for myself for once.
It's like everything I did was terrible to so many people on this site. I understand finding my opinions terrible, but there was so many instances where I was forced to be put under stress and guilt over things like other people's dramas, what I liked, what I disliked, if I loved my mother more than animals, having dyslexia, everything. Some people would just walk around my profile and cherry pick everything I said in stamps and other conversations that were usually over 6 months old, and were not even fucking polite about it but rather demanding. The whole "you are wrong!!" And "wow I really need to educate you" shit was so fucking degrading.
And no matter what I would say to most people on this site they were like brick walls, using only insults as replies and not actual reasons, and people LOVED them for it, and I was the stupid Bean who didn't agree to the guy who used my fetish as a reason against me for EVERYTHING.
Despite me making a lot of self opinionated stamps, I was still not really allowed to think for myself in the DA community. I hid my fetish for years, even pretending to go against it, just to avoid even more petty drama the "r/Iamverysmart" guys would start. The day I said "fuck it" I started getting less and less people commenting on my stamps, just ignoring me, talking behind my back, only a few of you guys stuck with me to the end and I am thankful for that
I had to choose, stay in the rat race, or forfeit it. I didn't want to spend the rest of my life stressed over other people's problems or thoughts. I wanted my OWN life, making my OWN decisions, and not relying purely on others thoughts and opinions. For once I wanted to decide for my own.
I now own an etsy, I sell furry ears and tail sets. I am also planning on making another shop for basic party hats and accessories. I am also self teaching myself Japanese, but I am unsure how long I will be in that rhythm for.
Please do NOT message me on Little Rolling Bean. Send me a note on all three of my accounts.
hollyhog is for the occasional fetish art
aMouseIsInMyHair is for my current etsy
Beanthescammerhunter is for Animal Jam
And if some of you send me a note on my sparkly new accounts trying to pull me into some old drama, just forget it, because I will just ignore and block you.
I never regret my times on Deviantart, it helped me learn so much, and develop my personality, as well as my reasoning skills. But I would rather be dead than sink myself back into Little Rolling Bean's DA Account.